26.8.07

Destiny awaited!

Back! Yeah! And hopefully, this time I won't have to delete the post half way. Well, if you get
to read this post, then consider yourself lucky. Coz I've been suffering from a huge "not in a
mood to write" syndrome. And trust me, I even thought it had no cure. Coz everytime I would start writing something, two sentences - and there goes my finger to the delete button! I dunno how I managed to do so! And I almost thought that my blog was taking its final breaths. All those debates, comments, questions. Everything seemed to be coming to an end. And that's when I heard about the "writer's block"!

Block as in road block, nose block etc. And not apartment block or building blocks. (Looks like I'm definitly gonna take time recovering!) Anyways. So, when this someone asked me if I were suffering from a writer's block, I saw no reason to say no. Because I knew I wanted to write on a whole lot of things, but the minute I opened my blog and began to type, words kinda got stuck. Nothing happened. And all I coud do was close the browser and sulk!

And as a writer by profession, this was the last thing that I wanted to happen to me. Not knowing what to write! Or even worse, not able to write. A whole lot of things haunted me in the past few weeks. Nothing seemed to be going right. And how I wished to write about it. But I would either stop myself coz I didn't want my state of mind to reflect on my blog or I would just not be in a mood to write.

In fact, the very reason I starting blogging was to find answers to several questions. When I was confused. Didn't know whether what I did was right or wrong. Or what next I should do. And that being the case, the past weeks were when I should have written the most. But then, writing them down and trying to find answers seemed impossible. Because I had to believe that some questions have no answers after all. If they are bound to happen they will.

Destiny. Something that's pre-written. Something I strongly believe in. And if my destiny meant all that's been happening, then so be it. I'm no one to change anyting. And it seemed like destiny ruled so hard that I wasn't even sure of what to write. I left everyting to my fate. Writing it down didn't seem to help. Answers didn't seem right. Decisions no more depended on them. I just followed destiny wherever it went. And deciding to write again just happened on the way.

And now as I write this, I still wonder what my destiny awaits me with. Where it is headed towards. And what it has in store for me. Do I just sit and wait? Or do I have to do something? But again, if it's pre-written, what really can I do? I can't change it? Can I?

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Interesting..., but not surprising. While it's true that destiny falls upon you without your permission at any time it like, that doesn't mean you can be an idle idiot. You have to do whatever you are supposed to do. When you are hungry, you start searching for food. Why don't you leave to destiny? I beleive, people often perceive destiny in a wrong angle. But I am not surprised to see that, simply becuase we all are destined to do that....!!!

har!s

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ anonymous:

That made a lot of sense! But I would also like to add that I tried my best to change destiny. And gave up only when I realised probably it's too late. And when nothing seemd to be working the way I wanted it to, I had no choice but blame it on destiny.

But again, I loved wut u said! And is sure gonna echo, whenever i decide to sit back and wait.

diyadear said...

hey ur a writer by proffession?? wow. that sounds cool.. glad to have landed on ur blog :)

Anonymous said...

Hmmm.... sounds like a complicated heart. Don't try to change destiny. You will definitely fail in that attempt. Instead try to change yourself. You might succeed. Finally, I would like share a sentence which I would like to remeber forever.

"Never be tired of being bold...!!"

Best of luck.
:-)
har!s

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ Anonymous

I don't knw who u r! But i'd like to say that you make me think!

I know what u mean by asking me to change. And I guess that's the only option I'm left with. However, it won't help me get what I want. Coz some things can just not be achieved by force.

But again, being bold for sure helps me move on with life.

Thanks fur your comments. They really help!

Anonymous said...

If everything that is going to happen is "pre-written", then what can I do about anything? I would rather sit and watch as things take their due course. What's the point in sulking or thinking about "moving on" as u mentioned, if what is destined will happen anyways.God get me outta this!!!Call me a pessimist!!
Although, I believe in destiny I cant sit on my ass and watch things happen by themselves. I dont think God created me to do that. He wanted me to be part of my own destiny. Play a role in it!! If everyone in the past had given up their hopes, there would have been no present. I would rather live in the present than brag about the past. Now, thats an optimistic thought.
Considering that everything's a part of His plan, we are left to choose between the two thoughts!
-cm:)

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Anonymous said...

I miss u, my darling lil sweety pie ;) love, evonne

Anonymous said...

hey do u have anyone in your life...????
from my reading, ur words says u r confused with a relation..am i rite ???
reply truly or else forget abt my comment....
take care...all d best..!!!

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ anonymous who wants to know if there's anyone if my life!

Well I have two questions for you.

1. Could you reveal your identity? Helps me answer your question. Or rather decide whether I should.

2. Why do u sound/read surprised when you ask if there's someone in my life?? Aint I supposed to or something??? ;)

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ diyadear : Welcome to destinyawaited divya! I would rather like to call myself a dreamer than a writer though. ;)

What I write, is stuff I bump into while in a world of my own. So what you see here will mostly be monologues.

Hope you like them. :)

Thulasi said...

"Let the world change you and you can change the world" : Che

:)

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ Thulasi.

Thanks for ur comment and welcome to Destiny Awaited. I went through your blog and I must say that there are some really beautiful pics there!

Vimal Pai said...

Thanks a bunch for the gyaan ;)
Will keep that in mind next time I pit-stop at the blog!!!
You've been dormant for a while too...or have you decided to await your destiny in silence?
Love!

Kalyan said...

Nice reading your post. Yeah, its true destiny is which drives us ahead & very few times actually we can control it. We just have to move on...Nicely written!

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genieeee said...

u need some break,
seriously go for a pleasure trip with ur frnds or ex-classmates.
man u need to view it in a different angle .
everything in this planet including me and u getting aged. for me each and everyday is precious, thr are billions of people around me, I just love to watch them (frm a distance); so much to learn frm and get inspired.wat if a street boy/grl who needs to beg the mercy of othrs for his/her daily bread. u call it as his destiny?,
and seeing tat scene makes ur mood drop, u call it as ur destiny, silly u r;
its bettr(if possible) go buy one tea for tat child first. and then pity on him or blame it on destiny (these come secondary).
destiny is a past thing i would say. and thrs no point in thinking thinking abt the past things. future is in ur hands.
and just don't compare destiny wit a mere mp3 ringtone; a stranger like me one day happn to visit ur blog and comment on it. is this too destiny??( "ur destiny" as u like to say it hah)/
don't lose out frnd. be bold."Lifes calling you".

genieeee said...

u need some break,
seriously go for a pleasure trip with ur frnds or ex-classmates.
man u need to view it in a different angle . man life is calling you.
everything in this planet including me and u getting aged. for me each and everyday is precious, thr are billions of people around me, I just love to watch them (frm a distance); so much to learn frm and get inspired.wat if a street boy/grl who needs to beg the mercy of othrs for his/her daily bread. u call it as his destiny?,
and seeing tat scene makes ur mood drop, u call it as ur destiny, silly u r;
its bettr go buy one tea for tat child first.(if possible) and then pity on him or blame it on destiny (these come secondary).
destiny is a past thing i would say. and thrs no point in thinking thinking abt the past things. future is in ur hands....
a stranger like me one day happn to visit ur blog and comment on it. is this too destiny??( "ur destiny" as u like to say it hah)/
don't lose out frnd. be bold."Lifes calling you".

Saritha Rajagopal said...

@ Kalyan: Welcome to destiny! :) ANd yea, destiny does influence one's decisions at times. But I still am to find out if that shud happen!

@ Genieeee : Thanks fur d advice man! I know, sitting behind and watching things happen aint the right thing to do. And am trying my best to change my outlook!